There goes my chance
I think I just screwed up. I'm such a JERK
In this Christmas, I'm supposed to study for my finals coming wednesday but my emotion just striked me again.
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I need to learn to be more capable to control my emotion but how someone teach me PLEASE.. I have ZERO experience about this. This feeling maybe a new spark to me, I have no idea how to handle yet
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I knew her quite some time ago but I don't really have the chance to spend time with her, all I can do is hang out together with other friends. Seems like a friend zone to me. I always wanted to go find her but she just stay too far i couldn't make it to there at the moment with my own effort T.T. I did seek help from my other friends but still cannot.
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At times i saw pictures of her spending time with friends, I always wish I'm there with you but I have another life running here, it's not like i don't want to do it but just that I don't have the ability to do so. But I think the worst thing about me is I never know when is the time and courage for myself to tell her my feelings. When i saw her post, I don't know about what is she thinking, I guess she does gave me a chance but I just wasted my chance
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Can i actually tell her my feeling the next time I see her? She mentioned that she wants actions and tired of words.
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Is this the correct time for me to tell her, am I actually prepared? Is she the one for me? Oh God, I really want to seek a hint from you.
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I wish I can do it for her after my finals, I have no excuse myself anymore but courage. I just hope my family won't get angry over it..haiz
Labels: Emo, Love
Problems at life
Somehow i feel so emo? lost? I really have no idea what am i doing =.=.....
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Neckache please begone. You have been bothering my life for a week. I don't know where i got the pain from either from bad posture of sleeping or didn't do enough warm up before playing tennis LOL
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My brother, I really have no idea what is he thinking. He has not been helping out the house chores like for a long time already and he is currently having semester break. All I could see him do is yam cha, discussion outside with friends and computer. He don't even bother about the house. His excuses are simple "I don't feel like doing it". Oh come one please, mom is not feeling well that day, can't you even help her out. Moreover, you already promised mom earlier. Well, end up I have to do it since I feel hurt when I saw mom working so hard for this and I don't even know where have your heart go. I can tell mom had a heartbreak when she saw you don't bother about it. My heart also break when i saw mom is the one doing only when we already know dad is not going to bother about it, just asking us to help and nag us if we don't bother. I really hope you will change, I know I have to change myself before changing you but I know I made my effort to change but you never seem to care.
You can be so brilliant in offering yourself in church but you don't bother about house? NO WAY, what is going to happen to my house and more importantly mom when I'm pursuing degree in other campus. Please seriously I hope you'll change although I know you won't bother reading my blog and I bet you don't even know the existence of my blog. Someone please pray for me about this. If not I really have to beg my church youth leader to change him since I already have no more idea.
I know somehow my cell leader won't stand for me because he's an elder brother and he has been having a tough time at home. He will tell me this is what I actually desire not from my mom or not that my brother really did it, unless your mom came and talk to me....Hey come on, is there any wrong I love my mom and aren't you supposed to stand for me or give me advice but not accuse me for not being a good brother. I'm really hurt when you said those you know especially you are my cell leader my spiritual father. Deep inside my heart, I know you are a great cell leader but when it comes to family issues, I guess you are not really well in handling. But still I don't blame you for not solving my family issues, we are still learning to be a good leader to solve various problems.
Labels: Emo, rage, Sad
Weird things and bad things happening
Don't actually know why, this week I was actually not doing something right in the sense that i noticed my mistake only when the damage is done or almost done.
1st I accidentally erase my dad's phone memory (felt so bad about it) can't save much T.T
2nd I shouted at someone ( I don't recall who) then I noticed it was my mistake again
3rd I felt so weird and indecisive these days, can't even make a simple decision myself. Almost regretted
4th I felt totally lost these days. I'm like slacking at home but somehow felt that I should have something to do.
5th Looking at so many people doing good thing, helping others and I'm just staying at home (though my parents don't allow me to go out unless permitted) but I somehow feel like joining them, they all looked so happy helping people.
6th I don't even know why I decided to join NikeRun, well got to run.......intensive exercise these few days trekking + tennis
7th I made my bro and I took the worst public transport known by Malaysian, the KTM to Mid Valley while we can just drive there cause i thought since it's Sunday should be not much parking but appears that all lights were green........
Oh My Gosh I really need some guidance. I somehow wish my guardian angel will read this and help me out T.T
Labels: Bad, rage
Love to have friends around
A day ago, Clinton invited me for Yam Cha session with Tammie, Roxanne, Choulyew, Bryan and Teck Hoe at Jaya One. I totally have no plan for that day, decided to just follow around.
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When we reached Jaya One, we went to look for Choulyew and Tammie as they were working in Monster Bites. I ordered a Nutella + peanut butter + banana and a little bit of love from Tammie haha. She made that for me. The food is very satisfying as it's been a long time since I touched Nutella!
ah too bad i forgot to take picture of the food!
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Tammie told us Mamak stall near Jaya One, beats me as i don't recall any Mamak stall nearby. She point at the mamak stall direction then only i realised not mamak stall but mamak restaurant lol. Al-Esfan
Took a small table and our chit chat began from there. Oh ya we also taught Tammie some Cantonese, i think her favourite will be 自作多情 haha
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Skip the chit chat stories as those are P&C however if you wanna find out come join us next time =P
After some time we decided change place went to Starbucks to just get a drink and have a better environment for chatting session. End up we got ourselves about 4 drinks lol i don't actually recall it properly haha.
Clinton took few candid shot on some of us but this 2 are my favourite.
Haha nice rite you have to admit it!
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3 people remain quite silent the whole time Roxanne, Bryan and Teck Hoe lolx
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Clinton came to my house overnight, we went kacau people around in facebook. As he was trolling around, i was busy explaining myself the whole time lol. We gossip, share our secrets hehe. Keep guessing ba
The conversation ended about 3am.
Labels: Joy, Love, Touched
Char Siew Day
After a whole semester of waiting, the Char Siew Buddies finally gather back together. Me, Yvette, Leonard and Joash! All from different campus...PJ, Sg Long, KL, Kampar. Leonard was the one fetching us as i can't drive that day. Well, at least we had a lot of fun with Leonard's car. When we were almost reaching the location, he went to Shell station to pump petrol then try to start the engine.....Tadadada solou the car cannot start and Leonard get so high with it haha end up need ask the mechanic to jump start the engine for Rm10. And we reached Aman Suria to get our Char Siew Leonard need to stay in the car lol if not the car die again.....me, Yvette and Joash were staring at the Char Siew...oh goshh look so delicious, we did not eat our breakfast just for this. Finish packing, start heading back to Leonard's house....tadadada the car die off again in the middle of junction. fortunately other cars can pass through the other side. Leonard and Joash found a good aunty from mechanic shop to help jump start for free =D. Head back to local workshop waited so long to change battery. Leonard taught us a new word today "solou" or "solow" i don't actually know how to spell that.
End up we had our lunch instead brunch in section 17 park. I know still look delicious rite =D dun jealous
Rush to Tropicana City Mall for movie the Killer Elite. The story is based on the true story!!!!!!!!! Worth watching it. We had wonderful times together, so glad that i have u ppl with me.
Oh ya thank you Lord for the Gift of these brothers and sister into my life. ♥
Labels: Grateful, Joy, Love
"Man" of the year award
For goodness sake please!
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Well sure u did a good thing for getting me rage and destroy my mood of the day.
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Well old man, 1st u say wait for me there then last min right after i close the door u changed ur mind zzz but ur message fail to transfer to me and i look for u around for like stupid 15 mins and u didn pick up the phone
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Later when we finally reach u and went to look for you, i just say a word u talk to me furiously and scold me for your clumsiness for letting ur phone in the car, irresponsible for not clarifying the mind u have just changed ( u think i can mind read u !!!), irresponsible for leaving us there without letting us able to contact u and scolding me for your own fault
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I made this blog to rage is because i finally cannot just keep aside getting scolded by u for something i did nothing wrong and being discriminated as the youngest in the family has total no right of speech in family zzzzzzz and of coz to express my joy and other emotions as well
Labels: rage
After a whole semester of waiting, the Char Siew Buddies finally gather back together. Me, Yvette, Leonard and Joash! All from different campus...PJ, Sg Long, KL, Kampar. Leonard was the one fetching us as i can't drive that day. Well, at least we had a lot of fun with Leonard's car. When we were almost reaching the location, he went to Shell station to pump petrol then try to start the engine.....Tadadada solou the car cannot start and Leonard get so high with it haha end up need ask the mechanic to jump start the engine for Rm10. And we reached Aman Suria to get our Char Siew Leonard need to stay in the car lol if not the car die again.....me, Yvette and Joash were staring at the Char Siew...oh goshh look so delicious, we did not eat our breakfast just for this. Finish packing, start heading back to Leonard's house....tadadada the car die off again in the middle of junction. fortunately other cars can pass through the other side. Leonard and Joash found a good aunty from mechanic shop to help jump start for free =D. Head back to local workshop waited so long to change battery. Leonard taught us a new word today "solou" or "solow" i don't actually know how to spell that.
